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cat balls, drunken falls

The weather was hot and humid last week in NYC. I tried to get some work done at home but my bedroom felt like a sweat box. Even poor little Gus was so hot he was laying around the house on his back, legs spread open, trying to cool his cat balls. I made a goal that I would find a boyfriend with an air-conditioned apartment for the summer. : )

Friday night, I just couldn’t take it anymore, I needed to get out of the apartment. I went for an hour bike ride around Astoria Park and then jogged for another hour. I just couldn’t stop. Maybe I was trying to run away from the thoughts that have been troubling me. Or maybe I was trotting the extra lap to get another look at the hot guy that was jogging in the other direction. I sat and watched the sunset over the water and Manhattan skyline and felt momentarily happy as I was surrounded by all of the characters that make NY home. There was a man on a unicycle who actually fell off when he looked up at me. (I’d like to think he was distracted by my beauty).

I got home and ordered sushi and watched 20/20 with my roommate. (Such a glamorous life!). Saturday night, I was excited to have Bionic Woman spending the night at my apartment. I just love slumber parties! We headed out to a local bar where my former roommate also came to meet and just spent the night drinking and laughing. You know it’s a good night when the bar breaks out in an impromptu limbo game improvising the limbo stick with a mop. After the bar the 3 of us headed back to my apartment for a sleepover. Bionic Woman made me laugh so hard that I fell in the street and scraped my elbow.

When we got back to my place, Bionic Woman and Mr. Bello grabbed cupcakes (from my birthday! I warned them that it probably wasn’t still good but they wouldn’t listen) and beers and we headed up to my rooftop. There was a cool breeze blowing and the sun was coming up…I coulda stayed up there forever. Except I was cold and sleepy so I came back downstairs and rolled out my yoga mat (only my 2nd time using the mat and it wasn’t for exercise) and went to sleep.

Sunday morning, we woke up, sweating (!), showered, and headed off to a yummy brunch with scrambled eggs, oatmeal martinis, and pickleback shots. I was stumbling out of the bar and headed to McCarren Park in Brooklyn for the Renegade Crafts Fair. There were so many beautiful jewelry, clothing, and artwork but everything was a little pricey and I couldn’t decide what I wanted so I didn’t buy anything. All I got was this cute photo of Bionic Woman. haha.

I was exhausted from a late night and walking around all day that I needed to get home to squeeze in a nap. I was supposed to meet TA for a so called date at 8PM. I ordered some chinese take out and napped while my roommate watched 21 Jumpstreet (random right?). When I woke up, I still hadn’t heard from TA, so I assumed he was flaking, as usual. Though I’m not surprised, I am disappointed in him, but I was relieved to be able to stay in and rest. The temperature had cooled down after the rain and I grabbed a blanket and watched Avatar (finally) with my roommate. What a great ending to a really fun weekend.

PS- I loved Avatar by the way. The animation was amazing and Sam Worthington is totes the hottest. The scene where they were praying at the Holy Tree with their glowing painted bodies reminded me of being at the Full Moon parties in Thailand. haha.

TA drops a bomb


Today was quite an interesting day. I walked around for most of the day with my head spinning, feeling completely off centered. I was running errands in the morning near where TA lives. He called me and I hadn’t seen him in a while so I figured I’d pop by and say hi. Our relationship is not a traditional one, for lack of a better description. I realized on my walk over that I have been seeing him on and off for two years now. How is that possible?

We sat down to talk and I remembered why I love his company so much. He’s just so easy to be around. A good friend that I’m incredibly attracted to. After catching up for a few minutes he told me he was engaged. I literally choked. I couldn’t find any words. Did I think he would tell me that one day? Yes. Still, I wasn’t any more prepared to hear that. How did I not know? Why didn’t he tell me sooner? I felt like somebody squeezed my heart and gave it a little twist.

I also wasn’t prepared for what came next. He had broken off the engagement. Head spinning. I am overwhelmed. He said he didn’t know why he was telling me. I’ve always been able to contain my feelings for him because I always knew he would never be able to return them. I don’t know if I can now.

He’s completely wrong for me. Must. Stay. Away.

(Image via Le Love)